I’ve decided.
I’m sorry.
Ni yong yuan hui shi zai wo xin mu zhong zui hao de na yi wei.
Vain
When you stand too high, you fall;
Right to the ground a hit too strong;
Breaking up all the ties, it all spread apart;
Losing all the pieces around, you stare and cried;
Struggling hard to pick them up, all the scattered pieces;
Bleeding all around, trying to patch them up;
What was once a single piece, is now a sorrowful puzzle;
Spending how much time and sweat;
It doesn’t just take a skillful player to score right end;
Endure and toleration;
Peace and calm;
Faith and trust;
It takes everything, yet;
It might not let you win in the end;
Failures till the end of all, or;
You might be stronger than who you think you are;
and standing up again;
Healing up the wounds and scars;
It is all it takes, and;
The pain is ever more,
but it is what you can never escape.
Sunset
When will I get to see another sunset?
I can’t remember when was the last time I’ve got to see one, it was long long ago.
I look out of the window, and see the orange, red sky- the sun is setting. Blocked by buildings, and blurred by the pollutions. I just know right there far away, the sun is setting. Going down the horizon.
I wish, I am on top of a hill, looking at the sky, watching the sunset.
When?
When will I get to see a sunset, one that I will remember deep down in my heart?
2010
It’s a new year, but life still continues on as before.
My days are getting even more boring. 2 days classes, 5 days sleeps.
Lovely
She’s such an adorable baby.
Tinkerbell. That’s her name, and she’s 7 weeks old.
She’s infected with fungus right now. Sobs. Please, be stronger and healthy. Do pray for her too.
Christmas is just around the corner
and it means the end of 2009 is coming. Just so soon, another yet had pass by and yet a new year awaits. Sometimes it feels sad when one year is going to end, as it means the age is getting older. It also means something much more important to me. My holiday is ending soon, fast enough. December is my favourite month of the year, a month of holiday and celebration. But as soon as December ends, I feel sad.
Most importantly, December is a spending month.
Anywayz, there’s still quite a lot of stuffs that I wanna get before end of the year.
A camera. Compact, of course. LX3 is my choice.
A computer, desktop or laptop. Either one, which is good enough to support my works.
A kitty. Persian. I love kitty. Huggable and lovable.
And I just got myself a handphone without choosing and consideration.
Ah… everything is money.
I wish Santa will come visit me and put some money in my socks.
Dying Crazy
Something is just spinning in my head. It keeps on spinning and spinning, until my head is in deep frustration and pain. Nothing feels more provoking than this. It’s drying up the mind, inducing a great thirst for a breathe. It urges the mind to search for a space, spacious enough for more time to breath. The stress to hold the thirst, is too much to be handled alone. It is far too much, and not much time is left…… before the conscious burn out dry.
